Am I thinking about this too much? Am I looking too far in to it? Should it really be as easy as D says?
D gives them as many samples as it takes and they have a child who looks like a cousin (even thought me and C are very similar build and colouring). We see this child on Christmas, school hoildays, family gatherings etc and thats it.
I think I should feel something but I don't. I think I should be more bothered that D will have another child but not with me but I don't. Should I? Is there a way I SHOULD feel?
I am worried that this childs life will be started in secrecy. D & S look nothing alike. S has awful teeth, acne scars & he is balding at a young age. D has nice hair & teeth and smooth skin. Even if S wasn't sterile I think D would be the way to go ;-)
I am flattered that C wants D to be the father of her child. If the situation were reversed I would not want to carry S's child. The thought makes me feel queasy. I really need the opinion of others but who to speak to?
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Hello Storm,
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I've read your blog and I'm sorry you're having such a tough time - it sounds like one hell of a dilemma you're going through, you are both so brave to even consider it and it is to your credit that you love your sister and brother-in-law so much that you would be willing to do this as a family.
No-one else can tell you the best way to proceed - this is for you and your husband to decide. Personally I uncomfortable with the idea of such a big secret - secrets like that have a way of coming out, and very few secrets really do stay that way forever.
All the best - I hope you both can make a decision that you can find peace with x